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Saturday, December 2, 2023

Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 7


~ Elizabeth ~


When Elizabeth entered the library, she was unaware she was not alone. Her ignorance did not last long.

A familiar voice emanating from the corner of the room murmured a barely comprehensible string of words. The experience was frustrating for three reasons: the voice belonged to Mr. Darcy; the voice had a rather appealing tone despite the unfortunate identity of its owner; and the volume was too low for Elizabeth to make sense of what was being said.

She came to a stop near him. He was so absorbed in his reading that he had not heard her at all, apparently. She feigned a delicate cough, and he started and rose. Muted greetings were exchanged.

Just after she had taken up a book and sat down, Elizabeth heard Mr. Darcy's voice again. She waited a moment for it to quieten. When it did not, she interrupted him. “Do you enjoy reading aloud?” she asked, drawing attention to the fact that she, too, held a book and hoping the expression on her face eloquently conveyed her feelings.

“I often find myself alone here,” he offered as an excuse.

“You are not alone now.”

“Pardon me, madam. I shall endeavour to contain my literary enthusiasm.”

Elizabeth smirked.

A few minutes later, she heard his voice again. This time it ceased quickly, and once more she immersed herself in her own book.

After checking her laughter for the third or fourth time, well entertained by Shakespeare's whimsy, Elizabeth stole a glance at Mr. Darcy and wondered how he would tolerate a taste of his own medicine, She read a line loudly enough for him to hear and was not disappointed with the result.

“I thought you did not approve of reading aloud in company.”

Elizabeth looked up. “Oh, did I ever say that, sir? Besides, when I do it, it does not keep me from concentrating on the words before me. Would you like me to endeavour to contain my literary enthusiasm?”

Mr. Darcy glared at her.

Elizabeth thought she heard a mumble that sounded suspiciously like “Exasperating woman!”

“Did you say something, sir?”

He did not answer.

“Is that your yes glare or your no glare?”

Mr. Darcy still said nothing, but the glare changed. Elizabeth could not determine what the change meant.

After a moment, Mr. Darcy lowered his eyes to his book.

They had been silent for some minutes when Mr. Darcy yet again lapsed into reading aloud. Elizabeth looked up in annoyance to find him already looking at her. So he had caught himself at it; all the better. She thought he would resume reading, perhaps quietly this time, but instead he got up and walked over to her.

“The only solution to this quandary,” he said, “is for us to read the same book.”

“Are you saying your solution must be the only solution?” Elizabeth retorted. “Why am I not surprised?”

“The other way is for one of us to leave, but on that point I fear you may be as stubborn as I.”

“If you think you will force me to leave because I would rather not admit to stubbornness, you are mistaken, You shall not be rid of me so easily as that.” Elizabeth was determined he would not chase her away. Let him leave if he felt separation necessary.

“As I thought.”

Elizabeth sat still, unwillingly enthralled. How could a man's smirk be repulsive and attractive at the same time?

Mr. Darcy opened his volume to the first page and held it out to her. “Will you not begin?”

Elizabeth continued to stare at him.

He hmphed, stared, and at last sighed and commenced reading aloud. Then he put the book into her hand and waited.

Elizabeth set the book down and picked up her own, turning to the beginning and reading the first lines of Twelfth Night.

“I wonder if I should bother to ask,” Mr. Darcy said, holding out his hand for her book when she stopped.

She gave it to him. “Had you not left for me the lines of that villainous Tybalt, I might have complied. You have read the best part of the play—that is, the prologue—with the exception of Mercutio's speeches. As for Romeo, I have no patience for him. First he loves Rosaline, and then he loves her cousin Juliet. It is a rather flimsy love that can be overthrown by one glimpse of a thirteen-year-old girl, in my opinion.”

“Perchance his was a...what did you call it? A thin sort of inclination, starved away by Romeo's own iambic pentameter.”

She watched the edge of his mouth twitch. She was hard-pressed not to laugh at his jest herself, and she imagined her eyes gave away her amusement.

His look softened. “Your choice is more entertaining.” He took a moment to find the place where she had stopped, and he continued from there, walking as he did so. Then he handed the book back to her.

She read more. They took turns, walking and stopping, eventually drifting over to the sofa.

The last scene of the first act was long. They decided to split it. With each turn, they lingered nearer after handing the book off. They went on that way, back and forth, through more of the play. Eventually they sat quite close, heads bent over the volume.

It was quite sensible what they were doing, Elizabeth thought. The words had been penned to be spoken before an audience. A full cast might have been ideal, but she and Mr. Darcy were acquitting themselves well enough. He even made each character's voice different—not dramatically so, but one could tell he had the talent for it. She could picture him reading to his young sister by the fire. Perhaps this was one of his accomplishments, a certain something in his manner of reading. She laughed, and he looked up at her and smiled before going on.

Spending time with Mr. Darcy in this way was far less unpleasant than Elizabeth would have imagined. In truth, it was not at all unpleasant.

It was lovely.

Elizabeth was pondering this revelation during one of their pauses when Mr. Darcy, instead of reading the next part, hesitantly said, “Miss Bennet, would you mind standing up just a little?”

The sofa was very accommodating. Elizabeth wondered why he needed her to move, but she did not question him. She began to rise and suddenly felt him sliding under her—and then he pulled her to himself until she was partially on his lap and in his embrace!

“Much better,” he murmured. He held the book in front of them both and began reading his part as if it were the most natural thing in the world for them to be pressed up against each other.

That sonorous, mellifluous voice, so close to her ear, made her shiver.

Was she mad? Was he? This was Mr. Darcy, Fitzwilliam Darcy of Pemberley in Derbyshire! The tall, proud man who insulted her at their first meeting, who looked at all her acquaintance to find fault, held her close as if he had every right to do so.

She ought to object. She knew she ought. To her bewilderment, she realised she had no wish to do so. When her mind insisted that this...arrangement was improper, that she ought to remove herself from this situation, her body insisted just as vehemently that she had better stay right where she was.

His body seemed to agree. She detected less tension in him now than in all the time they had spent together in the library so far this day.

Elizabeth could not be at ease. In her nervousness, she reached behind her to smooth her skirt. As she ran her hand along the fabric, and by necessity between her person and that of Mr. Darcy, she heard a hiss. She turned quickly to look at him.

“Elizabeth!” Darcy whispered, releasing the book and grasping her arm carefully but firmly to stay her movement. “Take care.”

Later, Elizabeth would wonder what she had been thinking. In the moment, however, whether impelled by curiosity, defiance, or something she could not name, she simply moved a part of her that she could move. Her arm stayed where it was, but she slid her hand back and forth a little and heard Darcy's breathing change.

She did not know how she was going to look him in the eye ever again, but she knew she must.

Just not yet.



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Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 6


~ Jane ~


“What do you think?”

Bingley had taken Jane about the house, favouring rooms she had not seen during her stay and being careful to avoid anywhere they might be heard from Caroline's rooms, of course. Oddly, they had not come across Lizzy or Mr. Darcy, but perhaps they, too, had been going from room to room, and they had all missed one another.

Now Jane stood in the middle of the back parlour, which she had just entered for the first time in more than a decade. During old Mrs. Thorne's residency, the room had been much plainer and, to Jane's mind, much more comfortable. Bingley had explained as they entered the room that the owner had given him leave to do whatever he liked with this parlour, for the wallpaper had been sadly worn. He had not needed to inform her that he had in turn given Caroline leave to do what she would, for her taste for splendour was everywhere in evidence.

Jane looked about her once more before answering Bingley's question. Her gaze flitted from one unappealing piece of furniture to another and lingered on the wallpaper for several seconds. “Rather ostentatious,” she said at length.

Bingley's eyebrows went up.

“Have I surprised you?” Jane asked him.

“I do not know that I have ever before heard you speak...well, slightingly”—at this word there was as much reluctance in his looks as in his speech—“about any thing.”

“I always speak what I think.” At least Jane believed so. Those eyebrows, however, made her wonder. She recollected a few recent conversations and frowned, considering what had been said and what had not. She was convinced she was open when confiding in one she loved, but she could not say the same when conversing in larger company. She did not lie on those occasions, but neither was she frank. That seemed natural, but was this the whole of it? Did she instead appear sometimes to be dissembling?

Would she, more to the point, have been frank had Caroline been the one to ask her about the furnishings?

No. She would have chosen words that could not give offence, and she could not say she would have made her meaning clear to the listener.

“Perhaps I do not,” she admitted in a small, uneven voice, “and you are right to be surprised. I wish I knew myself better.”

“I do not mind surprises,” said Bingley. His voice was as soft as hers had been but quite steady. “And I also wish I knew you better.”

She turned to him and looked into his eyes for a long moment. What she saw seemed at once familiar and new. From the beginning of their acquaintance, there had been that in his regard which she had found pleasing. That regard now had the added allure of possibility: not feather-light flights of fancy, but sober, careful consideration of what might be. Sober—what a word to associate with the ebullient Charles Bingley!

They were not smiling at each other, but Jane felt a lightness of heart all the same.

Bingley looked away, and Jane watched him in fascination, for he was far more interesting to observe than any thing else in the room. His gaze moved from one item to another. At last he gestured towards the wallpaper and said, “It is not quite...quite, eh?” He laughed a little. “I have seen worse in London drawing-rooms, to be sure, and in the homes of gentlemen wealthier than I. Caroline said she would manage the business, which suited me. I believe I looked in once after she had sent the workmen away, and at the time I congratulated her on the completion of her project. I do not know that I have stepped foot in this room from that day to this, and I certainly never gave a thought to my opinion of the alterations.” He looked again at some of the furniture. “That chair is not so bad, and I rather like the carpet, at least at second glance.” He turned back to her with a slight grimace. “But altogether it is a bit much.”

In the next moment he was smiling again and looking a little sly. “Let us start on those letters,” he said, “before something in this room puts you out of countenance and you change your mind.”

Jane laughed as she took his arm.

She had known men who would have used the opportunities this day afforded to take liberties with her. Bingley looked as if he wished to take liberties. His eyes communicated words he had not yet ventured to speak. He behaved, however, at all times as a gentleman, and she felt quite comfortable with him.

She could never wish Bingley to be ungentlemanly. But would she like it if he were to address her familiarly? Pull her close? Try to steal a kiss?

The way she was feeling at this moment, Jane feared he would not have to steal it. She might give it all too willingly.

Once in the study, they quickly got to work. Bingley dictated and paced, and Jane sat and wrote, until a neat stack of replies filled the space where the most urgent post had been. At length they began a reply to one of Bingley's relations. After some entertaining silliness on his part in which he sought to recommend 'the lovely Miss Bennet' with many flowery speeches to said relation rather than addressing the matter at hand, Jane took up her half-begun missive to throw on the fire and told Bingley that he must pen the reply himself.

As she moved aside for him, one thought warmed her. Of all the things she had begun to learn on this marvellous day, the most important might be that she loved this man, and he just might love her in return.



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Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 5


~ Bingley ~


Bingley turned from the window, where he had been observing the swirling leaves and swaying boughs. His housekeeper had just completed her report on the latest measures taken to aid Caroline.

“Very good,” Bingley said. “I know you have been kept busy all morning. Be assured the extra work will not last much longer. Once Miss Bingley is able to sleep, she will rest most of the day and need little attention. Her maid is used to these infrequent bouts of illness and will seek whatever help is required.

“As for the rest of us, we shall shift for ourselves until tea or perhaps even dinner. Something simple shall suffice. Mr. and Mrs. Hurst may wish to dine in their rooms.

“All the staff are to have the afternoon off as much as possible, or at least to be in no hurry as they work. That includes you,” he said, smiling. “I wish you had better weather for this impromptu half-holiday. That wind looks fierce,” he said, nodding towards the window. Indeed, they could hear it on occasion.

Bingley dismissed the housekeeper and was surprised to see Miss Bennet peeking into his study. “Come in!” he said. He watched with pleasure as she nodded to the retreating servant and walked towards him, looking for all the world as if she belonged in this house as its mistress.

“Do you have any plans for the day?” Bingley asked.

“I was going to ask you the same,” she said.

“I should like to spend as much time with you as possible,” Bingley said.

Jane averted her eyes, and a slow smile spread across her face. The smile was suddenly checked, and she said, “I should not like to keep you from your work.”

He followed her gaze to the untidy collection of unopened letters on his desk and frowned. “I am a tad behind in my correspondence.”

Jane faced him and lifted her head a little, as if in resolution. “You have had to host my sister and me unexpectedly,” she said. “It is only fair that I help if I can—that is, if you do not find the offer presumptuous?”

“Not at all!” Bingley was taken aback but perfectly amenable to her suggestion. “I admit I am not quite ready to tie myself to a chair and write for the next hour. We just got up from breakfast, after all.”

“Shall we sort the letters first? Then perhaps we can find something else to do for half an hour before returning to compose whatever replies are required. I would be pleased to write at your dictation if you wish to be spared the trouble of writing yourself.”

“Do you mean it?” He had not believed there could be anything romantic about dispatching his business correspondence, but the sweetness of Jane's offer made him reconsider. “You are an angel, my dear!”

“From something Lizzy told me, I concluded that letter writing is not among your favourite things.”

“You are right. Did she tell you how Darcy and Caroline teased me about my style, or lack thereof, the other night?” He grinned when she nodded. “I am often in such a hurry to be done that my efforts look no better than a schoolboy's.”

“My handwriting is neat enough. Let me repay you for your hospitality.” Jane walked over to the letters and stretched out her hand but did not touch them. “Shall we begin? Unless there are some I ought not to see?”

“I cannot imagine there would be.”

With Jane by his side, the letters were soon opened and set in orderly stacks. Bingley could not recall having enjoyed the task more.



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Thursday, November 30, 2023

Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 4


~ Jane ~


Stood at the foot of the stairs, well satisfied with the good food and even better company at breakfast, Jane watched her sister disappear around the corner and smiled broadly. She knew her smile was not the one often seen at neighbourhood dinners and card parties. This smile filled her whole being, for it was born of sisterly affection. Lizzy walked in that light, energetic way that signified that she had not a care in the world, and Jane was overjoyed to see it. She herself was hale and happy again, no small thanks to Lizzy's care. Which other of her sisters would have crossed muddy fields to see to her welfare? Kitty and Lydia were not ones to walk three miles on a mission of mercy, though they would have come for the diversion of leaving the house as long as a convenient method of transport could be found. Indeed, they had treated their brief visit to her as a social call. Mary would not have exerted herself for anything short of an emergency. She was too practical to bestir herself over a trifling illness, knowing she was not adept at nursing. To be fair, Lizzy was not a natural nurse, either, but Lizzy was a natural sister. Yes! That was it: she cared, and she acted. She was never one to stand by and watch people suffer. Even when the suffering was due to a weakness in character, Lizzy tried to aid the person and correct what could be corrected. Lizzy was also clever enough to change tactics when necessary. She had taken to answering Papa's sarcasm with the same, for he rarely responded to plain speech with anything but amusement. Their mother was the opposite, for only the plainest speech could deter her from her own ideas, and sometimes even that did not succeed.

Jane recalled the reasonable objections she herself raised to Mama's plan last Tuesday and the ease with which her mother cast those objections aside. Mama had come to Netherfield see what her plotting had wrought, but only after receiving Lizzy's note. She had shown not the least remorse for having insisted that Jane ride on a day that threatened rain, or for having risked Jane's health, or for having imposed on their new neighbours. Once satisfied that her daughter would recover, Mrs. Bennet was exultant—distastefully so, it pained Jane to witness. Jane had felt so ashamed, and her only comfort was that her hosts knew she had one member of her family whose concern was both sincere and substantial.

All that was in the past, Jane assured herself, recent enough to elicit a blush but still over and done with. She was well and would soon be back at Longbourn. For the present, however, being at Netherfield felt wonderful, and she was no longer in a hurry to leave it. The cause was likely Mr. Bingley's pointed attentions at breakfast. He had begged her to stay, and, oh, the look in his eye!

With every conversation, she was more and more certain Mr. Bingley was just the sort of man she would want for a husband and the father of her own children someday. He was not easily put out by illness or inconvenience. He would be happy to see his family rather than be always shut up in his library. He had a kind word for everybody, no matter their mood.

There was something else, though, and it made her forgive her mother in full for having sent her through the rain to Netherfield. Jane was not fanciful, but she felt there was a difference in the atmosphere this day. There was a level of comfort, freedom, unreserve, generosity—any or all of them—that had been lacking before and seemed to have affected them all. She was tempted to credit it with Mr. Bingley's candidness and Lizzy's subsequent teasing, and even Mr. Darcy's slow smile at the spectacle she and Bingley made and the lack of that hunted look Mr. Darcy sometimes wore. When she thought of that look, she thought instantly of Caroline's assiduous attentions to that gentleman and the fact that her friend had not been there to pay them. Caroline had not been there to interrupt her brother's flirting, either. Nor had she been there to comment on Jane's manner of dress, or on her situation, or on the behaviour of some of her family, or on whatever Lizzy was doing at the time. That was fortunate, actually, because Caroline's comments, often echoed by Louisa, were sometimes not as kind as they could be, and not calculated to put Jane or any of the Bennets in the best light, as much as Jane was loath to admit it.

Was is wicked of her to be pleased that Caroline remained in her rooms?

Lizzy would not call her wicked. Lizzy had never thought highly of Caroline and Louisa. 'Their manners are not equal to his,' she had said after the assembly when comparing the ladies to their brother.

Lizzy was right, Jane realised. Nothing had changed this day except the absence of Mr. Bingley's sisters, and it was as if the air in the house were suddenly easier to breathe.

Jane would never wish Caroline ill, but she could not help but wish her a good, long rest. In accordance with that, she resolved not to go upstairs and risk making the slightest disturbance. Instead, she decided to seek Mr. Bingley's company.



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Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 3


~ Bingley ~


Bingley had been dressed for some time before he ventured out of his room. He had heard footsteps outside his door again and again. Assured by the lack of any summons to himself that nothing of an alarming nature had occurred, at last he opened his door just enough to glance about.

The activity was centred down the corridor. At times there were moans coming from that direction. Caroline must have a megrim, poor girl, though a few of those moans sounded like something else entirely. In any case, that explained the flow of servants. It was always the same with Caroline: whenever her head pained her, she ordered one thing after another, rejecting half outright and the remainder after a moment's consideration. In the past, servants had learnt to complete their useless tasks as quickly and quietly as possible. They knew the bustle would not last forever. At length his sister would sleep, and the staff would release a collective sigh, no doubt. Caroline would rest well into the evening, take dinner in her room, and be perfectly recovered the next day. Bingley hoped it would be the same this time.

When the footsteps ceased to be heard, Bingley took a quick look down the passage, smiled at the emptiness of it, and made his way downstairs.

Breakfast had an unusually cheery aspect, which suited his feelings. Perhaps it was the sight of some of his favourites on the sideboard.

Darcy was at the table before him, and even his aspect was less severe than usual. He and Darcy had barely exchanged greetings when Jane and her sister entered the room, deep in conversation. They stopped to greet the gentlemen amiably enough, but they retained serious countenances.

“Does something trouble you, ladies?” Bingley could not help asking.

The girls looked at each other, and Bingley saw Jane nod at Miss Elizabeth, or Lizzy, as he thought of her, for that was what Jane called her.

It was Lizzy who spoke. “We wished to send a note to Longbourn to request the carriage today, but the servants all seemed unusually busy, and we did not wish to distract them from their duties.”

“I am happy to say I feel well enough to return home,” Jane added, looking directly at him and making his heart race. “I should not impose upon your hospitality any longer, sir.”

“But surely it is too soon!” Bingley cried as her words sank in. This would not do! “Are you certain you would not be risking your health?”

Jane—dear Jane—insisted she was well, and the more she did, the less Bingley could countenance her going.

“Miss Liz—Miss Elizabeth,” Bingley said, correcting himself, “your sister will listen to you, will she not? Do convince her to put aside any thought of leaving!”

“Oh, my dear sir!” said Jane, visibly affected by his vehemence. “I should not wish to cause you trouble. If it is inconvenient—”

“It is a matter of my sanity, not merely convenience,” said Bingley with a laugh. “My dear lady, if you care at all for my welfare, do not abandon me today of all days.” He smiled at her. She was such a beautiful woman, and not just because of her face.

“Today of all days?” Lizzy repeated.

“Caroline has a megrim. A rather bad migraine from the sound of it,” Bingley said in explanation.

“Does she?” Jane said at once. “I am a poor guest indeed! I had not even inquired about her. I hope her illness will not be of long duration.”

“She will rest soon enough, but I doubt you will see her today. You may not see Louisa either, for she is not fond of serving as hostess.” Bingley leaned closer to Jane. “If you leave just now, I shall have to follow you to Longbourn. The house will feel too empty without you.”

Bingley heard Darcy murmur something he could not make out. He glanced at his friend and saw him struggling to keep his remarks to himself. Then he happened to notice Lizzy's face. He almost laughed at the similarity of her expression to Darcy's. His angel, in contrast, looked upon him with the sweetest compassion.

“I suppose,” Jane said hesitantly, “it would be courteous to stay until I can take leave of my hostess properly and assure myself of her good health.”

“Mr. Bingley, I congratulate you,” said Lizzy, pulling his attention from her sister. “Jane is always firm where she knows herself to be right, and she considered it right to depart Netherfield now that she is well. Yet you have her grasping at excuses to stay.” Lizzy smiled a delightful smile. “Even I cannot convince her to change her mind once she has made it up. I would ask you what your secret is, but I suspect it would not do me any good.”

“Lizzy!” said an adorably mortified Jane. Bingley knew Jane was kind enough to genuinely care about Caroline, but Lizzy knew that as well, and Lizzy had implied there was more to Jane's feelings than kindness. So she liked him that much, eh? Perhaps by the end of the day, with no Caroline and Louisa in company to distract and disparage her or to contradict and cajole him, Jane would like him even more. Carefree by nature, Charles Bingley, in an uncharacteristic move, began to make plans in earnest.



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Miss Bingley's Megrim, Part 2


~ Louisa ~


Louisa Hurst sat on her bed in her dressing gown and frowned. She could hear the telltale sound, even with the door closed. Caroline always thought she was such a delicate flower of a woman, who never did such things as snore (she did), chew loudly (eating salad with her was not the most pleasant of auditory experiences), or throw the occasional tantrum (she would never admit her 'utterly justified complaints' were delivered in the same tone her spoilt three-year-old self had used when thwarted).

The low, mournful utterance Louisa now heard usually heralded a thoroughly tedious day. Caroline would have the maids and footmen running to and fro, she would be in no fit state for a good gossip, and that dreadful noise would continue throughout it all until her sister could manage to sleep.

All the same, how timely this illness was for Caroline, as it let her out of her hostess duties. Well! If Caroline would not entertain the Bennet girls today, neither would she.

“Are you going down?” asked Hurst from the connecting door.

“Be quiet!” Louisa hissed at him. “Do not you hear? Caroline has a megrim.”

“Bother!” said Hurst quietly. Then he approached the bed with a smirk. “On second thought, stay where you are. I shall join you. We might as well add our own moans, and to better purpose.” He began to disrobe. “We can ring for a tray in an hour.”

Hurst was tolerable. He was no Delicious Darcy, that was certain. Now, that man...! If Caroline ever did succeed in getting him to propose, which seemed less and less likely, Louisa did not know what she would do. She was not sure she could truly look upon him as a brother. Speaking of brothers, Miss Grantley's brother was a specimen of masculine beauty one did not come across every day! Her poor Hurst could not compare.

But that smirk on her husband's face had turned into an alluring smile. His eagerness to be with her was appealing, she had to admit. Spending the morning in the arms of an enthusiastic lover and enjoying breakfast in bed afterwards sounded superior to having to guard her tongue and watch her sister's interests in the presence of Charles, Darcy, and the Bennet ladies.

She removed her dressing gown and slid over to make room for her husband.



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Miss Bingley's Megrim


(2023)
Pride and Prejudice
During Jane Bennet's stay at Netherfield, Caroline Bingley awakens with a migraine and remains in her room for the day.



~ Caroline ~


Miss Caroline Bingley awoke in a most disagreeable state.

The insistent discomfort she felt must have drawn her out of her slumber. She opened her eyes a tiny bit and closed them again at once, moaning in pain. Keeping her eyelids down, she slowly turned her head from side to side. The way she felt immediately afterwards did not reassure her. She marshalled her strength and raised herself up on her elbows until the throbbing in her head was too strong for her to continue the effort. She slowly lowered herself back onto her pillow in consternation.

There was no doubt. Miss Bingley had a megrim.

Caroline had suffered migraines for several years. Many months would pass between episodes, so many that she was able to forget her susceptibility to them. She was rarely ever ill othewise.

What had she done to bring about this one? She recalled the evening before. Her attempts to gain Mr. Darcy's attention had been futile until she had the brilliant idea to use her rival's presence to her advantage. To her great satisfaction, she had drawn a compliment from Mr. Darcy, and in light of that, she could overlook the fact that the same compliment was paid to Eliza Bennet. Then everything fell apart, or fell back into its usual place, with Mr. Darcy and Eliza Bennet in conversation while she looked on, baffled once again at how quickly she had lost control of the exchange.

Playing the pianoforte had been a challenge. The urge to ball her hands into fists had nearly caused her to miss a note more than once. She played on, however, until the others were ready to retire. By the time she finished a second song, Hurst had awakened. He had been the first to leave. The others soon followed until she was alone in the room.

Caroline had been about to leave when she saw the decanter. Hurst had not emptied it for a change. She knew she ought not to indulge, but she was so angry! She poured herself one drink and then another. Perhaps she had had a third; she could not now remember.

And as a result, she had this blasted megrim.

If it were just any other day in the middle of November, she would have thought nothing of remaining in bed for the duration. It was not, however, any other day. It was a day in which Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy was under her roof, and so, unfortunately, were Miss Jane Bennet and Miss Elizabeth Bennet.

Jane, with her beauty and sweet disposition, was entirely too tempting to Charles. Her brother would not need an excuse to spend the day in her company and imagine himself more in love than ever. Caroline had been the one to moderate the growing intimacy between her brother and new friend: interrupting a tête-à-tête at the right moment; encouraging Charles to spend time with the other gentlemen in pursuits that did not include the ladies; mentioning discouraging details about Jane's situation and connections. Louisa would support her, but Louisa could not be relied on to take the lead in preventing such an unsuitable match.

Yes, Charles was a lost cause, at least for today.

So was her pursuit of Mr. Darcy.

Her one consolation was that Eliza Bennet had argued with Mr. Darcy again last night. The gentleman would soon tire of the lady's antagonism. To declare the man hated everybody! How ridiculous!

Well, to be fair to Eliza, Mr. Darcy did seem to hate quite a lot of people, or at least to tolerate them ill. If only he would love certain people, namely herself, she would not care whom he hated.

Thinking about Mr. Darcy only made her head hurt more. Fortunately, at that moment, her maid entered the room, took one look at her, and murmured that she would see that her mistress was not disturbed by the residents of the house and that the corridor was kept quiet.

After making certain her mistress was as comfortable as possible in the circumstances, the maid drew the curtains, built up the fire, and left Miss Bingley to the darkened room and the pounding in her head.



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